My experience with Jesus
Fall 2022 Thru Spring 2024
4/22/20254 min read
I have procrastinated writing anything about my experience like mad. I feel enormous pressure (perhaps just by myself) to 'Prove' that the man I met, claiming to be Jesus, is in fact Jesus. Or something along these lines. I can not prove such, nor do I know if he is or is not Jesus. I can only share my experience. From the hundred+ hours of teachings primarily in the mans living room, and another similar amount of hours receiving feedback from & working often nearby his other half, Mary, I can deduce the following-
He is an abnormally normal seeming guy (hardworking, focused, loving, sincere, funny, creative, thoughtful, insightful...)
His knowledge/teachings of the spirit world are vast
His desire seems to be God's Love first & foremost
Second to this seems to be teachings around ones own healing journey in Love & in receiving God's Love
Loving Mary I would actually probably slip into that second space, then followed by loving others.
If you are completely unaware of the Gnostic's view on Christianity/Jesus, or have never considered a 'Historical Jesus', then the idea that Jesus could/would have a website, or a Youtube channel today might seem odd to you, as it did myself some 8 years ago. I was first presented merely a glance at a website's homepage with a photo of A.J./Jesus and Mary & asked if this was Jesus. My perceived credentials were that I was I lifelong Christian, 'not religious but spiritual', I should know by a glance. Within a second I said 'No!' with a laugh ( a website was weird, then add Mary. Plus, I had not heard trumpets, or seen Angels or Jesus ascending from the sky yet).
It was not until I began researching the creation of the collections of books we commonly today refer to as the Bible. Learning that the Bible as we have it today borrows from earlier recorded Creation stories, coinciding with the idea that the earth has been through numerous civilization 'cycles' or 'resets'. Understanding this also helped break down the dogmatic belief that the collection of books in their entirety, regardless of which versions, translations and changes have been made over the centuries, is "God's Word" Versus, Man's words, some & possibly much of which has been inspired by God/Holy Spirit & other spirits- but at the very least, has Man's inflections throughout.
This then began my research into the "Historical Jesus" & some commonly agreed upon components-
The one they would call the Messiah, even prophesied about
Taught about the Love and relationship with the Father available to ALL
Displayed/Was Love on earth to a historically noteworthy extent
Existing religious folks/leaders tended to clash with who he said he was and his takes on religious laws & text interpretations
Between political & religious authority, & perhaps the will of the majority, Jesus was executed
From this point in deconstructing Christianity, I threw away everything I had believed in to this point, even "God", and explained my experiences as some mashup of my past, present & future selves.
This concept quite quickly began to dissolve as I was still searching for better answers when I discovered the troves of Near Death Experience research. From here, I recognized the patterns within the experiences, and then one particular teacher had more information to share around Near Death Experiences, and some common misconceptions. The information made sense, and introduced some more expanded & clarified concepts of "heaven/hell", but the source was coming from this guy "A.J. Miller" claiming to be Jesus. Obviously I was sus.
However, some of these new concepts more closely coincided with the idea of ones own arrival location in the spirit world being related to the development in Love/condition of ones soul, versus a mere belief that appoints ones permanent placement of a heaven or hell.
At this point in my journey I had considered a Jesus that was not exactly as I had been told/taught, and I began a deep dive into hours of interviews/behind the scenes UNCUT footage to figure out if this guy was crazy, sinister, a fraudster, or by wild chance who he says he is.
After about 1 year of first discovering Jesus website/teachings for myself, I struck off to Australia September 2022 in hopes of participating in some activities, learning more from & meeting Jesus & Mary in person, getting to mingle with company around them, and possibly lending a hand where needed.
I spent my first month in Byron Bay waiting to hear any word back about my desire's to get in touch. Word arrived that my visit would be welcomed, & I spent the next year and a half with and in the proximity of Jesus & Mary & the crew.
The experience as a whole I liken similar to the few months I spent in an addictions treatment center over 15 years ago. My facades being challenged, unloving emotions & attitudes being exposed, this time though with a consistent invitation to soften into ourselves to feel, and to seek God/God's Love through the experiences.
I think this is was the premise, & I only allowed myself to begin feeling things more deeply a handful of times during my time there- still being extremely resistive to being humble and feeling all of my feels.
The feedback presented to myself, as confronting as it was most of the time, there was also levels of care/love, which also felt different, seeming to lack some of the unkind elements of holding power over, or condemnation, but felt more gentle & understanding, yet firm. These can sound like just words I am typing, however we all know people in our lives with different levels of genuine love/care, which we can recognize. My description my be not unlike one you may also have experienced with someone at somepoint(s) in your own life.
All in all, my experience in Australia with Jesus & Mary was a positive one- there are no compounds, no weird culty rituals, and everyone in Jesus & Mary's life can come & go as they please & I don't think that bother's anyone, any bit. No one is house sharing in a commune at this point. From what I witnessed, all where holding quite high measures of self responsibility, with their own lands, homes, gardens, water supply, etc. It was fun & encouraging seeing the healthy pride coming from taking these steps of being self responsible in more & more ways. I have fond feeling towards most individuals I met, & yes, towards Jesus & Mary also. Once again, I can not say if he is Jesus or not, but regardless, I do believe his teachings can help assist all of humanity (past & present) to heal.
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